Aug 25 2007
Something is Missing
We have been home for about three weeks now. Back from vacation and settling in well, easing back into our routine of school and chores and activities. Falling into that old familiar rhythm to our days. Same as it ever was, happy, satisfying, and yet there is an unmistakable feeling…something is missing.
And I believe I know what it is.
I do believe our time in Kodiak has etched a mark upon our hearts which try as we might we cannot ignore, much less erase. The simple truth is that we miss it. Everything about it.
And there is so much about Kodiak to miss…
The lovely wildflowers and wildlife…
The rocky coast…
moss-covered forests…
and icy-cold rivers, all teeming with life!
We miss walking the docks to look at the boats and dream…
(can you hear Superboy’s heart going pitter-pat?)
marveling at the towering stacks of crab pots…
enjoying the catch!
We mourn the loss of sweet, unfettered time. Time to explore without any kind of agenda…
and plenty of space to do it…
But most of all…
more than anything else that Kodiak may hold,
we miss…
And our hearts are simply not whole. Because until we are together once again, how can they be?
So until then, my love, know that we think always of you…
Longing for the day when we are no longer…
missing.
*snif*
Miss you guys as well. This place IS beautiful, but less so now that you are gone.
I feel a little out of place posting a comment right after your husband, but I just have to. I truly think that a wife & mother who is separated from her spouse has her duties increased ten-fold.
So be brave, dear friend. God is good and He will see you through this.
And on a lighter note, do you not think that it looks like a little deer face is popping up from the water in that photo of the rocky coast?
So sad. I agree “sniff”
This will be a strange and difficult year, but I have faith that you are one woman who can still make magic through it all. I hope your daughter appreciates the sacrifice you are all making for her to have a great last year and makes it AMAZING! This is much bigger than counting down for Christmas!!
ON a side note…my NatureGirl and I spent some time viewing all your Kodiak shots in our study of Alaska. When I told her more of your story and impending move, she was quite envious. Then she mentioned, “Can you ask your friend to reserve her adorable homeschooled, nature-loving fisherman son for me until I am sixteen and can meet him?”
When I laughed and said we had never even met him, she told me that you can learn more about a boy from the writings of his mother than ten dates. I had to grin. This one is pretty smart, indeed.
I know exactly what you mean – without the husband factor, of course. I hope you are reunited soon.
We’ve had to do the separated thing a few times when dh got new jobs too, though never for a year! A few months, yes and that was hard enough.
I’ve been catching up on your blog and WOW, so many changes for you. Alaska looks so beautiful. It must be so difficult to be separated from various family members for so long.
I’m enjoying the photos you posted of your time in Alaska to date; thanks for blogging about your adventures there. We’re studying the States this year, and I’ll be using your blog as a reference.
Oh Theresa, my heart goes out to you, I know a *little* of what you are going through, thanks for the beautiful pictures and memories!! BLessings, and hang in there!
A difficult path indeed … here’s hoping that the rich tapestry of days which you are creating for your children will ease the heartache, just a little.
Will you be able to visit again, during the coming months?
This is a beautiful post, Theresa. Your pictures are lovely and so is the sentiment. I know the feeling of missing your husband. God bless you and your family.
Theresa, these pictures are just stunning and your thoughts are just the right balance of bittersweet. May you be together again soon!
Theresa,
I hope it isn’t long before you’re all together again!
God Bless you all!
Thanks for sharing this beautiful post… the photos… the sentiments…